The Law of Love and Account of God's Faithfulness

It's been a while since I've written of my encounters with God's faithfulness. That's not to say there haven't been moments that shouted of God's glory, but I perhaps was not as intentional about documenting them.  Today was one of those days that God reached down in the depths and quenched my deep thirst and wrestling.  Work has been a total challenge and test of faith, with many changes coming down the pike.  With the population to whom I work, steps towards life change can be tough to see and can take a long process (as it is for all humans--but particularly the population that I work). There are many many days when I feel defeated. I wonder if my work has any meaning or is making any impact at all.  But today...today I had a day where God open flood gates of change for one of my patients. As many times as I felt like more of a bother than a help to this patient, the consistency burst forth into big change in the midst of crisis.  I had been praying specifically for this woman for several months and often felt defeated when in her moments of suffering, all I could say was..."this has to be terribly difficult. I am so sorry that there are not resources available to meet your need at this time."  But, in miraculous ways God came through and met her need today. To see hope re-emerge through her smile--reminded me that God is faithful in his own timing. And in small way--God reminded me that even though I am weak and incapable--he is strong and able.

I am incredibly blessed to be one of the leaders for a jr. high group at my church. Tonight we dug into God's word in Deuteronomy.  We were blown away that God came through on his promises to Abraham--even if the fruits of those promises only came generations later.  "The Lord your God has multiplied you, and behold, you are today as numerous as the stars of heaven.May the LORD, the God of your fathers, make you a thousand times as many as you are and bless you, as he has promised you." Deuteronomy 1:10-12

-Deut. 1:21-- See, the Lord your God has set the land before you.  Go up, take possession, as the Lord, the God of your fathers, has told you. Do not fear or be dismayed.
- Deut. 1:30-- The LORD your God who goes before you will himself fight for you, just as he did for you in Egypt before your eyes.

As I continue to journey into the wilderness of the unknown with my job and my future, I will continue to hold onto these truths. When I begin to lose focus and feel like I need to fix things for my patients, I need to remember this experience. God will come through--IN HIS TIME. I may never see a change--but God will still be at work. He asks me to persevere in the difficulty--To continue to love, when it is easier to abandon. To keep hope--when it is easier to become frustrated and apathetic.

Father,
Thank you for speaking through Deuteronomy. I praise you for meeting me here and making yourself known.  You are so faithful.  Forgive me when I doubt you. For the moments where I fear and worry because I feel I need to fix and solve and make things better. Thanks for the humbling reminder that YOU are in control and I don't need to take that into my own hands. This battle with control is a life long struggle--but thanks for sticking with me in this fight.  And in general...Thanks for fighting for me, Lord.  If it be your will, I pray for more opportunities to shout of your faithfulness.

Your daughter,
A

Laura Story--Faithful God

May the grace that sought my heart on that first day

Be the grace that binds my heart to stay

May the truth that opened up my eyes on that first time

Be the thoughts on my mind that never go away

For You are a lamp to my feet

A light to my path

You're the hand that's holding me

Faithful God, every promise kept

Every need You've met, faithful God

May the love that caught my heart to set it free

Be the love that others see in me

And may this hope that reaches to the depths of human need

Be the song that I sing in joy and suffering

For You are the love that never leaves

The friend that won't deceive

You're the one sure thing

Faithful God, every promise kept

Every need You've met, faithful God

All I am and all I'll ever be

Is all because You love faithfully

Faithful God

How deep, how wide the love

That pierced His side, the love

Redemption's mine, oh love

That will not let me go

How deep Your love

How deep, how wide the love

That pierced His side, the love

Redemption's mine, oh love

That will not let me go

How deep, how wide the love

That pierced His side, the love

Redemption's mine, oh love

That will not let me go

Faithful God, every promise kept

Every need You've met, faithful God

All I am and all I'll ever be

Is all because You love faithfully

Faithful God, faithful God