Lord God,

I am being humbled beyond measure. Each morning, I wake up and wonder why you have entrusted me with this life. I feel inadequate and failing in every measure. I crave balance in all areas of my life, but some days it feels like I cannot measure up.

But in these days I am waiting patiently, asking for help when I need it, and laying before you with a new found understanding of my need for you. I can't do it all on my own. But you let me rest in your strength. I don't have to pretend that I am a mighty superhero, I can truthfully demonstrate that I am a wounded sinner being carried in the arms of your grace and love.

At the same time, I pray that I would not fall prey to the "victim" complex. I cannot control what happens to me, but I can control how I respond. I have choices I can make. I can choose to give everything I've got and trust that it is enough. I can choose to cut myself some slack sometimes. I can choose to let things go. I can choose to live passionately, without fear. I HAVE A CHOICE.

I want to be more than a conqueror (Romans 8:37). And I have to remind myself...nothing can separate me from the Love of Christ. ....let me emphasize NOTHING....no emotions, fears, failures, stress, relationships. God's love is stuck on me like old chewing gum on the bottom of a school desk---firm and fast, stuck for the long haul.

Lord...this is my prayer. That you would breathe new life into me. Energize me with your passions. Strengthen me when things are difficult. Work at the condition of my heart--this heart that wants to give up sometimes, the heart that feels defeated, the heart that feels weary. I pray that this life of mine would be more about you and less about me. I pray that I would see serving others as an honor.

I love you Lord. Thanks for loving not just some of me...but all of me.