Monday, October 10, 2011

Condition of the Heart

It's almost midnight, after a really long work day, and yet my heart has been stirring, yearning, and thirsting for a connection with God tonight. Over the last two months, life has gone from pretty lifeless to jam packed with a lot of great stuff. While two months ago, life felt a bit lonely and directionless...I notice in those times, I am so much more aware of God and the status of my spiritual life.
Now, while life is filled with a lot of great stuff, that time to really reflect has become smaller and farther between. Lord, I don't want to go back into old patterns of life. Lord I trust you in this season of life, and I just ask that you would show my a life balance that really illuminates your name. I pray that I would not take on so much, that my relationship with you suffers.
Lord, right now I just feel contentment. I can truly say that my thoughts now are more on how my life can bring others to know your transforming love, than how I can experience earthly love. Father, I just pray for the newness ahead the next month. I trust that you have a plan for the next year. I would hardly ever imagine that I would be at this place, and yet I know you seem to surprise me all the time with your divine purposes for each situation.
Lord, I just pray that you would continue to shape and mold me into who you need me to be. Your construction zone in my heart may hurt at times, but I just pray that the end result is something beautiful and something honoring to you.
Lord, I pray that you would help me take the steps and actions toward changes in my life. I at times don't know how to take that first step or what that looks life. So, I just pray that you would provide that wisdom.

Lord, please be with each of my MPACT girls. I praise you for the relationships that were built last weekend, and I just pray for continued openness amongst the group. Lord, I pray for those you bring into my life, that they would hunger for you.

Lord, I pray for the man I will marry someday. I pray that you are just at work in his life, preparing Him to be a man of servitude and humbleness-- a spiritual leader and encourager. Whoever He may be Lord, I just pray that you would make me into the woman he needs me to be.

Thanks for hearing my heart Lord, even at times when I am uncertain of the condition of my heart.

Aud

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